college

So I have 2 english classes (EN109 and EN103), Im in anatomy and have an anatomy lab, as well as freshman seminar. It is so hard to keep up in my classes. Right now in my anatomy lab, i am not doing so well (which sucks). I'm hoping to find a way to bring up my grade by the end of the semester. Its not really that long because i only go once a week for two hours and have a test every week. I came into college with TIP which i don't really know what it is all i know is i only paid five hundred dollars to go to school this semester, and only three hundred for next. If i dont get my grade up for my lab, i will lose my tip and have to pay full price for next semester and the years on. I pray that i am able to pull myself together and pass this class. I thought it was going to be a little easier than this because i took this class in high school and my teacher kind of taught it as a college course but i was wrong. Anatomy is kicking my ass.

thanksgiving break

I can't wait for thanksgiving break, having a week off of classes is just going to be so nice and stress free. I am going to Atlanta for the week to spend time with my boyfriend. I hope the weather is nice still, because i'm sick of this cold weather shit here. I cant wait to eat turkey, mashed potatoes and gravy, have some corn and some bread. I have to admit, i'm going to miss being home for thanksgiving but i think its going to be better being away from Marquette for a little bit and on my own. Im kind of scared for the plane ride there just because i have only been on a plane one time and it was when i was younger and i was by myself so i had paid extra money to have a girl come on the plane with me and help me find my seat and transfer planes at the air ports, so now this time, im on my own. Lets see if i make it there like im talking about it...

success

hey y'all,

So its like weird to think like every day in your life you want something new or want to do something different than what you already are doing. Its weird how often people change their minds about stuff, and how money almost affects everything you do. Cause i know if most people could travel the world for free, they would. Its crazy to think we all have that one dream that we wanna live and we are all working towards that. We make decisions based on whats going to lead us in that directions, we do work that will help us in that field to whatever  your career choice is. Well as of right now my dream is to get this year done with school, move to Atlanta where i will live with my boyfriend, get the rest of my Dental Hygienist schooling done at Atlanta Tech which takes 3 years of schooling. After those 3 years, i want to get a job down there and be a dental hygienist of course and have a nice house and maybe a little bit after a year, i want to start a family. I want to be able to know how to save my money because everyone who knows me well enough, knows i cannot save money for my life. I hope you all have a great plan for your future and what you have to do to get to that point to be able to say "I made it"

so far behind

hey everyone,

so as you see i have not been doing my blogs. I am SO far behind and this sucks so bad because now i have to think of all these things to write about and be able to make 500 words in all 7 blogs i owe. OMG 7 blogs... that sounds terrifying. With going to work full time, working two jobs, and doing all this homework while trying to find time for myself to do something every once in awhile is so hard. It seems like college takes away your whole entire life. Its like you can barley work, yet they want you to be able to pay all this money to go to school. it just doesnt make sense to me. I know its college and whatever but i feel like the teachers give out all this homework as if we dont have homework in other classes and they think we have all this time in the world to do their homework they assigned to us when really we have like 130 pages to read in another class. its so hard to do so much assignments in such a short amount of time. These blogs really kill me, not going to lie. I dont have time for them during the week and i never know what to write about. i can only imagine if someone actually read a whole page of what i wrote about what would be going through their minds because i just go on about something stupid until it looks like i have written enough. but i hope who ever read this til the end had a good weekend!

things i know to be true

a list of things i know to be true:

college is different than high school
I am alive
cancer sucks
migraines suck, they are hard to get rid of once you get one
working full time and going to school full time is tough
drinking a lot of water throughout the day is good for you
texting and driving is dangerous 
I drink a raspberry tea every day
working at a movie theatre is very boring
I get distracted very easily
I slept in this morning
The earth revolves around the sun
Most food we eat are from animals
eating three big meals a day is normal
cell phones in class get you off task
being able to have your computer in class makes it hard to focus
having asthma sucks
when you watch the clock, time seems to go by slower
trying to save your money when you want a lot of things is hard
having to work late but wanting to go out with friends is frustrating
fruits and veggies are good for you
i called into work  today
NMU lost to MTU

grandpa

I would never go to Marquette General Hospital again.. My grandfather was diagnosed with throat and tongue cancer in the beginning of the year of 2013. He was being treated at MGH. Later that year, he was diagnosed with lung cancer. Yes, he was a smoker and yes he was as drinker. One would think that they would still have my grandfathers charts from the previous months he was there getting treated with throat cancer but we were wrong. They almost killed my grandfather. They were saying that he was a DNR, but in all reality he wasn't. So they were not giving him the help he needed and wouldn't resuscitate him. We then found out what was going on and fired the doctors off our case and was asked for him to be transferred over to Mayo Clinic. That day, he got accepted into Mayo Clinic and was air lifted there. All my immediate family had went home to pack their bags to hit the road to Minnesota. It was a long drive, the only thing that was running through my mind was my grandfather. I was thinking of every way possible that i could have helped him. We got to the hospital, my grandfather had no idea what was going on or where he was. I could not stop telling him how much i loved him and told him that he needs to keep fighting for me. He went through a lot at mayo clinic. Through surgeries and procedures, it was all a nightmare. I stayed at the hospital for two and a half months with my grandmother. When my grandfather go out of the hosptial, he went to Wisconsin and lived with one of his daughters and went to recovery there. He did great, he got to come home after about two months. He got home and in the home hospice. One day i was at his house and he didnt look or sound good at all. He lost all his energy, he couldn't talk, or do anything. He then later passed away that day in his favorite chair. Honestly can say that has been the worst day of my life, losing him as changed me. I got to clean his body up when the nurses were in there cleaning him up before they came and got his body. It would be interesting to talk to anyone about this if they have gone through the same thing because its always nice to hear what other people did to keep their lives moving.

why i have a scar on my eyebrow

hello everyone,

so i guess all i can think of right now is writing about how and why i have a scar on my right eyebrow but when you look at me its my left. Growing up my father was never really in my life, but one summer I got to go to his house to hangout with my brother and sister. I have a baby sister that has toys everywhere, just keep that in mind. I was about eight years old, and i was with my brother and older sister and we were messing around and my brother was laying on one couch and there was another couch across the room and i was jumping back and fourth with my sister from couch to couch and then i jumped off the couch that my brother was on and while i was jumping off i kind of slipped a little bit and went to the side more than straight and i hit my head on my little sisters play zoo and my head started gushing blood. My father lives in Wisconsin and he was not home but thankfully my step mom was. She called the ambulance and they came and picked me and her up and we went to the hospital. I have a lot of family that lives in Wisconsin and I got my stitches in and while that was happening i fainted. When I finally woke up my whole family was there to support me. After the doctor told me i was good to go, my cousin that was there seen some of the blood and fainted himself. So we were there for a good half hour later than we needed to be. So now that is why i have the scar on my eyebrow that i cannot cover up unless i color in my eyebrows which im not going to do and will never do.

bad but good weekend

hey,

So i had planned to go down to Detroit this passed weekend in advance of 2 weeks. The weekend came up so quickly, I was so excited. So im driving 7 hours downstate all by myself. I honestly can say that i love driving long drives alone because i can sit back and think about whats going on and to gather my thoughts. The whole reason i went downstate was to see my boyfriend and his family. I got down state and picked him up from his cousins house and went to the hotel we were staying at. I go to the front desk and check in so we can go put all our stuff inside and settle in so we can go over to his mothers house. We got all settled in, went to his moms house. I was so happy i got to see everyone, because it was a good month since i seen them the last time. His family and I are really close and I would do anything to be there for them. So it was getting dark and we went back to the hotel because we had to get up early in the morning to drive to cedar point. So we went to bed and woke up in the morning and drove 2 hours to Ohio where we arrived at Cedar Point. We were there for 8 hours and it was so busy because it was labor day but it was so much fun! We went with two of my friends that also went down state. We get back to the car because my friend drove us, and my car wouldn't turn on because my battery was dead but there seriously was not anything that could have drained my battery. So we jumped my and it started and we went back to the hotel room. We got there around 1am and went to bed because it was 97 degrees out at cedar point and the sun had drained all our energy out. So in the morning on Sunday, I looked at my bank account to see how much money i had left. I was seen how the hotel took one hundered twenty five dollars out of my account twice. I was so pissed. I went down to the front desk and showed them what was happening and they said they cant do anything about it because their computer doesnt say they charged me twice. So a good weekend had just changed into a bad weekend. I got home monday night at mid night. I had work the next day and most days at work my manager orders food and asks anyone if they want anything. They were going to Dairy Queen and i was interested into getting some. I looked in my bank account and got so happy because i seen all my money back on my card plus they gave me an extra fifty dollars. So that is my labor day weekend, it was a great weekend but bad moments.

argument

hey everyone,

So like one day I was out with my friend driving around and it was the end of July. There was a J.Cole concert coming up in Detroit and my other friend and I wanted to go so bad. My birthday was in June and my mother had still not got me anything so I thought to myself that maybe she would buy me this ticket. I called my mom and she was at the bar and so she went outside to talk to me and i asked her if she would. She agreed that it could be my birthday present. The friend who i was planning on going with was in Florida, so i said i would put her ticket on my card and my  ticket on my moms. Keep in mind that this concert was almost sold out, so i was going as fast as i could to purchase these tickets. So i buy her ticket on my credit card and my mom had sent me her card number. I then did my ticket and her card number was not right and i tried calling and texting her and she was not answering so i went to the bar she was at. She then realized she switched two numbers around and so she gave me the correct card number. I then said thank you and what not and she asked for a ride home later that night. I said i probably could because i was going home that night since i had to work in the morning. So i ended up going to Negaunee with my friend who i was driving around with to go to another friends house. We hung out there for a little bit. I then looked at the clock because i had fell asleep and it was 12am. So i texted my mom saying to be ready at 1am because i had work in the morning and i was about to head home. She replied back saying "no, 1:30" and i said no "1am or else find another ride" and she replies with "fine, 1:15". I ended up falling asleep till 1am and woke up and left and didn't get to the bar till like 1:30 in the morning. I texted her to come out because i was almost there. I got there, she still wasn't outside so I went inside and got her. She ended up staying in for a couple minutes longer and i texted her saying "im leaving". She then came out with two of her friend who needed a ride as well. They walked the other way to go to their car and so my mom and step dad told me to drive over there and get them. At this point, i was so impatient and pissed off because i needed to go home and get sleep. So here this couple is trying to get the top of their car to close because they had a convertible and they were so drunk they couldn't get it. So while we were waiting, my step dad and mother were asking me all these questions that were just getting me irritated. I then took a deep breathe and my mother then asked me what was wrong and i kinda had an attitude and said "because i have to work in the morning" and my step dad in the back seat goes "welcome to the real world" and i replied back "i dont have to be here getting you guys from the bar at 2am" so my mom then opened the door while saying "fuck you" and slammed the door. Next, my step dad got out and they kept telling me to leave and to pull off and so i sat there because i thought it was immature. I finally listened to them and started driving away, then the other couple started yelling shit at me and i got pissed and actually left. I was so pissed off.

bad week and its wednesday

hey everyone,
well i guess I just wanted to let you all know how my week is already going. Let me remind you that it is Wednesday.... only two and a half days in the week. I'm starting off all wrong coming into college. I haven't been doing my homework until the night before, I haven't studied for my anatomy lab quiz till the hour before I had to take it. I feel like it is going to be a long year ahead of me but hopefully I pull through and get my ass together and pass all my classes with higher than a B. So here is how my college career is starting off.... the first day school starts i g to my first class and its at 9am, I go inside and it was a decent two hours in class and i come back outside and I find a ticket on my car (was so pissed). so then I go home and do whatever for that day and ended up going to hangout at the dorms and didn't get home till midnight. So I go home, take a shower and go to bed. I had a 9am class which I usually get up at maybe 8am for it. I then get a call at 7:30 in the morning from my mom she says "so are you getting ready for your class at 9am?" i go "yeah, i go for 9am" and she goes "well next time you come home, don't park behind my truck because I hit your car this morning" so here i am freaking out on her on the phone, I jump out of bed a go to look at my car. It was so depressing to see my baby get hit. I then leave for class and I of course parked in the wrong parking lot and had no clue that it was only faculty and staff so here I come out after class at 10:40am and I have a ticket on my car. So its not even noon yet and my car was already hit AND I got a ticket.. So that is how my life has been this past week. Welcome to college, right!?